"Where are you Christmas?"  " Why can't I find you?" goes the song.  In writing this I am not suggesting that I am the only person on earth feeling this way.  I am merely reflecting on how I feel this Christmas and the memories from Christmas's past. This picture of Mom was taken the Christmas … Continue reading Where Are You Christmas?

The day you came into the world Sam Bond, you made it  a better place.  Now I didn't meet you for another 25 years, but you changed my life and my world as soon as we got together.  Ordinarily I wouldn't be caught dead dating, let alone marrying a guy that was 5 years younger … Continue reading The Big 6 – 0

How do you say goodbye to a companion that has been with you through thick and thin over a period of time that your whole life was in transition.  From the day Waylon came into our life, we experienced Kidney transplant surgery, two cross-country moves, countless trips to Mayo Clinic (yes the dogs came with … Continue reading HOW DO YOU SAY GOODBYE?

It was the second day of Spring, March 21st and I was feeling really great, thinking I might actually be getting lucky ( if you know what I mean)  so I went out to do my daily walk, when I received an email from said person saying he was going to chicken-out on that, oh, … Continue reading A Message From Sam

 "The tragedy of old age is not that one is old, but that one is young"Oscar WildeWhen I was a child, I had the notion that it would be cool to be older.  You know drive, have a job, have a husband, have kids,  and drink.  Not that I ever did a lot  of drinking … Continue reading On Your Mark, Get Set, Grow Up!

We who have suffered a loss do get weary, the grief makes us weary and with all the turmoil going on in the world, sometimes it is more than we can bear.  With the holidays here it brings memories of happier times and those damn Christmas Carols playing "I'll Be Home for Christmas" and the … Continue reading Try A Little Tenderness

Dear SamThis will be our third Christmas without you.  I miss your larger than life personality trying to make the season bright for all, especially me.  The years you would dress up as Santa Claus and visit Max and Addie every Christmas Eve.  It was even magical for me.  When the kids moved to Vegas … Continue reading Ghosts of Christmas Past

Not exactly a club we want to be members of.  Our husbands are gone, and here we sit, wondering what the hell happened.  I must confess, when left on my own, the question still bothers me.  What the hell happened?  Don't want to be a member but I am.  More and more through life, I … Continue reading The Dead Husbands Club

"Hello world, my old friend, it's good to see you again"  from one of my favorite songs by Lady Antebellum.    It talks about cell phones ringing, traffic jams, distractions we all experience.  Lot's of things and people vie for our attention, on a daily basis and we don't take time to look outside ourselves to … Continue reading HELLO WORLD

The last few days have proven to be somewhat of a challenge and eye opening as well.   Seeing as it has only been a scant five months since I moved back, I have started to go through the pile of boxes in my garage which take up half of it.  Due time, don't you think?I … Continue reading Lighten Your Load