Cradle Catholic, Cafeteria Catholic, devout Catholic, Roman Catholic, and for those who want to do the very minimum, Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny. At one time or another I have been all of the above.
I won’t go into the scandalous cover-up orchestrated by the Vatican. I will say that the pedophile priests make me sick to my stomach and my heart aches for all of the abused. All of it being done in the name of God. There are a lot of Catholics who have abandoned the Church because of this, and I understand and have nearly done so. What I am trying to explain is why I have decided to stay in the Church.
Because I am a Cradle Catholic it is all I know, it is home. After having been away for the last three years, I started going again sporadically. One Sunday in November I went to St. Ambrose in Parchment, my home parish, and felt a real peace there. Walking down the same aisle I walked to marry my Husband Sam, that my Son walked to receive his First Communion and Confirmation, and the pews I sat in with my family for so many years. My Mom and Dad and Sam. The choir did an exceptional job that day and it moved me. I seemed to hear in my mind the hymn “Hosea”. https://youtu.be/i1ntir3qgdY
When Mass was over, I went over to our choir director and told her I wanted to come back to choir and sing and she welcomed me back with open arms as did the rest of my choir family. I was home. It was a small miracle, The Lord touched my heart and lead me back to where I belonged. I am singing at 11:15 Mass and love it. I know God loves all of us, all we have to do is believe and try to be a better person. We will fall and he will pick us up, it doesn’t matter where or if we attend a certain church, as long as we are trying, he knows and will answer our prayers and give us the strength we need to get through this life.
Bottom line is I am a different person since all this happened, I love my life and look forward to making a difference with everyday I am given.